Pigeon

I wouldn't post this on here except that this websites name is 'pigeonpower'.
if you are squeamish (dad!) then perhaps you shouldn't read this post.
I was sitting on a bench on the train platform this morning on my way to school when a train went past. It was very loud and, as I already had a headache I didn't much appreciate it.
I heard a sound under my seat but it soon stopped so I ignored it. After a while I heard it again so I looked down, between my leg, through the gaps in the bench and underneath I saw a horrible sight. There was a pigeon, wings bent and looking very much in pain. Slowly I saw some red liquid spread out and spill from under the pigeons body and head. I felt sick. Quickly I stood up. As I was on the phone to Matty I told him, 'there is a dead pigeon under my seat,'. I looked at the platform and there was a trail of feathers to where the pigeon lay. I looked down at the pigeon again only to see it moving again. It was squirming and it's mouth was opening and closing in a desperate attempt to live. It flew/crawled across the floor and I didn't see it move again. I moved away from where I had been sitting with my bags and felt a certain amount of disgust at all the people who walked past and stared at it, laughing, jeering and commenting. There was another pigeon on the platform who soon flew away. Before it did it was looking around and I couldn't help but think that this was the dead pigeon's friend. I know that I probably over reacted, for one thing it is only a pigeon. But it hit me really hard and I felt so sick. whenever a train went past after that the feathers on the platform blew around. I was so thankful when my train finally arrived (6 minutes late) and I could leave the station.

Exams :(

last week i had exams, i had my chemistry on tuesday afternoon, physics on wednesday afternoon, i then had maths friday morning, and theatre studies in the afternoon. overall i thought maths and chemistry went fine but i was quite worried about theatre studies and physics. this week i have got back three of my results so far. chemistry - 88%, maths - 91%, physics - 87%. this is just making me even more worried about theatre studies!!
last week while i wasnt doing exams i didn't really do much revision...i spent quite a lot of time talking to my amazing boyfriend! he was ill (aww!!) so i spent quite a while talking 2 him and cheering him up. i also watched tv and ate quite a lot (i also slept more than i should have done!!) then, over the weekend he came to visit. i waited in Sainsbury's by the train station until Matty arrived by train. i then ran to meet him and got out of breath (silly me!). i met him just before he left the station so i was proud of myself :) in sainsbury's i had bought 'Save the last dance' (£5.99), a tube of fruit pastilles (yummy!), and a 9V battery for Matty.
(will update later about saturday's trip to peckham and sunday)

What Happened Next...(I'm original ain't I!)

As I do not have a very good memory I do not remember what happened next very clearly. Matt and I stayed on the seat for ages as he was not ready to return to the meeting. I will ask Matt what happened as he has a brilliant memory. I do know however that the next day it came to the time of leaving. Matt's parents arrived quite early, about 10:05 and I really did not want to leave. We said goodbye to Sam and Lynette but somehow managed to forget to say goodbye to Pete...sorry!! I remembered when I got into the car that we had forgotten but by then it was too late to go back. During the majority of the journey Matt and I were both asleep (aww!) and I was very surprised when I awoke to find that we were in his drive.
During the NYHP Matt had got quite a few verses given to him. There was Ephesians 6v10-18, Psalm 91, Leviticus 3v12, Job 42v2-6, Job 33v13-17(roughly), Revelation 22v21, 1 Samuel 3v9, Colossians 4v12. If anyone knows of any other verses he got please give them to me! I will also check to see if there are any more that i wrote down. http://uk.geocities.com/crunyhp this website has not been updated in quite a while but it gives the feel of the holiday.
This is all I can think of to write for this update....

Carrying on From Before about NYHP

In the evening of the 2nd we were doing some worship in the meeting when Matt's grip on his prayer cross suddenly loosened and he dropped it. I didn't think much of it at first but was slightly worried as it fell to the floor. I had previously been thinking that Matt was praying but I knew that when Matt prays he holds onto this cross very tightly. Nonetheless I picked it up and put it back in his hands. He promptly dropped it again. I was now more worried but I tried to comfort myself telling myself that it must be God working. Sam had just been up to the front to talk about the drastic measures God used to talk to him (eg loss of leg movement so he couldn't run away) so this helped me a little. Now I look back on it I do not think that it was a coincidence that this thing with Matt happened at this time. The timing of it filled me with confidence due to Sam's words. I slowly lowered Matt to his seat and felt like crying. I sat next to him praying for him and getting more and more scared as the 'symptoms' seemed to be getting worse. He was staring around the room with a blank look on his face, every now and again he would put his head in his hands and look really distressed. This continued for about 5-10 mins and during this time I asked Lynette to pray for Matt although I did not tell her anything specific. In the end though I found that I needed to talk to someone so I showed and told Lynette what was going on and finally I began to cry. Lynette stayed very calm and decided that we needed to take him out of the orangery (the worship room) and so we carried him, putting his arms over each of our shoulders. I can't remember exactly but I think Sam might have been with us at this point. Even if he wasn't he was definitely out by the stairs with us quite soon after we took matt out. Lynette prayed for Matt and me and told me not to worry as it was probably just God trying to talk to Matt. While I had my head bowed and my hand on Matt's back praying for him he was really restless. Finally he came to, it was as though he was waking up and he looked around in a daze. He was very confused as the last thing he could remember he was in the worship room singing and now he was out sitting on the stairs with a sore bum (he hadn't been very easy to control as we sat him down on the wooden stairs). He remembered just before the nothingness there being something someone (or something) had wanted to say but he had not wanted to hear it. He had been trying to block it out. I wasn't in much of a mood for talking as I was still in tears. Sam and Lynette did quite a good job of calming Matt down. When it came to what had actually happened I tried to explain but I don't think I was very coherent as I was trying to stop my tears from flowing and my throat was a little sore. Sam went to get a bible as he felt that there was a bible verse he wanted to share with matt. The verse was Leviticus 3v12. Later on in the evening, when some of the campers were doing a dance that they had been practicing throughout the week, the same thing happened. This time I felt better prepared to deal with it. I immediately told Lynette and we took his out. Learning from our previous mistakes we lead his to a comfy seat which we gently lowered him onto. A few minutes later Lynette went to get Sam as I remembered that Matt had said he wanted Sam to be there if it happened again. While Sam was gone I prayed and whispered into Matt's ear in the stupid hope that it would change something. Me, Sam and Lynette were sitting round matt praying for him when Matt suddenly said 'Samuel'. (Sam and Lynette both think that Matt actually said 'Sam' not 'Samuel' but 'Samuel' is what I heard and so this is what I have written as what Matt said. It was this word which gave me the passage of scripture about Samuel) Sam had taken it to be his name as Matt had stared straight at him but, as I was looking down, I had taken it to be the story of Samuel from the bible. I looked up the verse when Matt came to again and passed on to Matt what the verse said.

I will continue this later...(theatre studies beckons)

SHOCK - has two meanings

just before lunch today I got back my Maths result - 63% (grr, terrible! and I made so many stupid mistakes!) ah well, then I had lunch where I introduced this website to Angharad. I hope that wasn't a mistake! I'm feeling a slight 'Caution' sign ahead as I do believe she ever so slightly might post quite a lot of comments! that is good though (keep commenting Angharad).
I had physics this afternoon where I finished the paper I began in the morning and got 88% over all. that was a much better grade than I was expecting!
I went home early today and spoke on the phone to Matt for a while. He was in quite a lot of pain due to stomach cramps so we were both doing a lot of praying. I watched neighbours and then went off to SHOCK. SHOCK is my church youth club for youth my age. it stands for 'Spirit Helps Our Christianity Kick'. on the way down my dad told me about how one of his old school friends is 'missing, presumed dead' along with his eldest son. his two other children are dead and his wife is alive. that was the second 'SHOCK' of the day. the worst thing is that I had read their story in the newspapers this morning, I'd recognised the faces and names but I wasn't sure where from. I'd decided to refrain from reading the article as I was sure it was not what I wanted to rerad, couldn't have been good news. When my dad told me, the penny dropped. I'm still in a bit of shock. I didn't know them very well but I did know them and had seen them within the last few years.
At SHOCK I sat with a bible on my lap and read random verses, writing down the verses I found the most helpful. I found quite a few and by the end of SHOCK I was feeling quite a bit better. we all talked about the party we will be holding on sunday (it is a new years party as we weren't organised enough to get it ready before christmas!) and briefly mentioned the service we'll be taking on february the 6th.
When I got home I rang Matt, had my dinner, went on msn for a short while and am now trotting off to bed.

Back to school in the New year :(

So, (buttons on ice cream and see if they stick) after having my christmas and new year it was straight back to school. A school filled with boredom and I have exams next week. At least I can be thankful (for the time being) that my exams are only internal and do not have an effect on my AS grades. In the end though it just means more exams in June.

i will briefly describe what has happened in my holidays.
School finished on Thursday 16th December (i think!) Matt, my boyfriend then came to visit from the Friday till the tuesday. on the monday we went to the centre of london to meet up with two of our frineds called Sam and Lynette. we both knew Sam but it was our first meeting with Lynette and I for one was very nervous! Fortunately, after Matt prised me out of the disney store (i didnt even want to be in there, i was just too scared to meet Lynette) we saw them both coming towards us. The day was really nice. We had lunch in a Pizza Hut where both me and Lynette were found to be picking the topping of the pizza we ordered and turning down the offers of a starter. when it came to sam and Lynete having to leave i had a mixture of feelings. i was sad the day had ended as it was nice getting to know them both a bit better, but i was also quite relieved as i had been so nervous throughout the day. Matt and I took the tube home and talked most of the way. when he had to leavew on the tuesday it was, as it always seems to be, really upseting and difficult. at least we could console ourselves with the fact that we would be seeing each other in just under a week.

Wednesday is a blur to me but on the Thursday the family (excluding my older sister abi as she was working christmas eve) all went up to beaconsfield to visit my grandparents. we stayed there till boxing day. Every christmas we go to visit my grandparents and it doesnt feel like Christmas until we are there. it is always really nice loking at the large tree in thelounge with all the presents undeerneath it. im still young enough to get away with feeling my presents to try and find out what i have got. im more cunning than i used to be, perhaps ppl shud put my presents in boxes before they wrap them to prevent me from ruining the surprise. this Christmas, like so many others was brilliant. One of my favourite presents (excluding chocolate as that always wins hands down!) was the dressing gown my Granny and Grandpa bought me. it is fleece-y with pockets and a hood. one of my main problems with dressing-gowns is the way that they always come untied at the front and let the cold in...this one, however, triumphs over this problem by having a zip up the front, GENIUS! it is blue, as i asked for, and warm (a request without saying :))

Coming home on the sunday was tough as i knew that as soon as i returned home i would need to start packing for my next set of travels. on the 27th i set off to Matt's as we were both going to a NHYP (new years house party) which began on the 29th. Before then i had to survive seeing more members of his family once again. i always find it slightly disconcerting meeting his family, not sure quite why, but before i have always been there when they arrived. this time i was to arrive when they were already at his house so i didnt have enough time to prepare! i was fine up until the point when i had presents piled onto my lap. i felt awakward, i had never even met his uncle before and he was giving me a present (it turned out to be a terry's chocolate orange segment egg thingameejiggy! yum! :D) i dutifully opened the presents wondering if it was rude that i had no presents with which to return the gesture. i shouldn't have worried, their family do presents in a big way! when me and matt went up to his room we decided to give our presents to each other. some of the ones he gave me weren't much of a shock as we had already discussed what he was going to get me but some of them were, for two main reasons. the first is that my memory is appauling so i had forgotten what he had sed he was going to get me and the second reason is that he got me some things as a surprise. i loved what he had got me, felt horriblre that i couldn't take it all home on the 3rd as it was too much to carry but he'll bring it with him for his next visit so i don't have too long to wait.
on the 29th we set off to westonbirt. Westonbirt is a christian Crusader house party at new year. the building it was held in was Westonbirt school, an all girls bording school. it was massive and really pretty. we were met, once inside, by sam and lynette. Sam was going to be a dorm leader but Lynette was a camper like me and matt. the first few days of Westonbirt were not great. Matt's back was playing up and he had lots of things on his mind. the last couple of days were better. on the 2nd (a sunday) we went to a church. it was quite youth focused yet had retained it's older 'members'. some people had een to this church 2 years ago and it hadn't been very good for them then but it had changed. in one song there were actions and in the instrumental people were dancing in the isles. the vicar was at the front doing the actions with a man called Mike. i tried to imagine my old vicar doing it, that just make me laugh even harder! One of the greatest outcomes of that service is that it convinced Sam that he should aim to go back to church. i really hope he manages it and Lynette does what she feels God wants her to do, encourage Sam all the way.

Now i had better go to my next leson but i will aim to do an update soon....although that doesn't really mean very much! i have Maths next and i'll be getting back the results to a test i did yesterday. i am not too hopeful...